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Yesterday, after having a rough day in the stock market, I became very angry at God. Believe me, this was not the first time. During the crash of Nov., 2008, I was going through a similar struggle, except 10 times worse. After a frustrating 3 days, I literally lost half of my entire stock value. I remember I was so upset, that I took a box of uncooked cheese macaroni and threw it against the wall as hard as I could. When the box hit the wall, macaroni went flying everywhere, all over my kitchen. I've only been that angry a couple of times in my life, but that was one of them.
Well, anyway, getting back to yesterday, after having my fit and angry episode at God, He just told me to go ahead and vent my anger, and that He would still be there when I was done. He also told me that He wasn't giving up on me. I felt terrible afterwards, and asked for his forgiveness. We had a long conversation that went into the night.
One thing He told me was that I was more excited about the stock market than I was about Him. And, He reminded me that He was the one who supplies our needs. He is our source. I was beginning to think it was my abilities and my talents. I couldn't wait to check my stocks in the morning when I got up. Oh, yes, I prayed, but my heart and mind were on the stock market. And when things didn't go well, I would blame Him.
How many times do we find ourselves obsessed by everything but the One who gave us these blessings? God is our source; our supplier. Instead of being obsessed, we can find rest. Instead of worry, we can take all these to God in prayer. It's a whole lot easier to put things in God's hands, and then rest, than trying to wing it on our own. Let's keep God as our first love, rather than putting other things first. Let's not take him for granted.
Pray for me, that I will keep God as the love of my life, because He is the only one who can bring lasting joy and blessings. He is the source of all that is good, especially when He gave his all, when He gave his Son, Jesus, to save us from our sins.
God Bless--Corey
